You & I – 6 (Silverlining)

I: I want to talk to you.

You: Why don’t you?

I: Because after all those, I feel scared of feeling in a certain way which drags me down everytime. You know how I can say many harsh things.

You: Yes, you are ruthless.

I: So, I also don’t want to say something irrational again to shock you more.

You: Good that you care.

I: I know that we all have our own problems in our present and adding more to that and feeling stressed are probably we both can not afford.

You: Then why do you complicate things time after time?

I: Deep down, I still have deep emotion for you, and the many trauma I went through and risked myself with were and are pretty self destructive that I feel like I rather keep them in my safe box.  But still I am the one who ends up saying more on my own terms as I am probably always bad at listening.

You: God, I wish you could listen more.

I: Anyway, I miss you everytime anything resonates with me to realize how deeply I loved and cared about you, even though our expressions are very different.    

You: I miss you too.

I: I was watching this movie “The mountain between us” – it’s about these one male and female who get stuck after a plane crush and eventually survive. He was married and she was about to get married the next day after that plane crash. But they get closer while fighting for their survival. Eventually they came out of the situation falling in love with each other, but still when they came back to the real world from the wild, they could not just get together because they each had their past baggage to carry on, but eventually they get together again, because they truly had love for each other.. or may be the movie just wanted to produce a good ending. And may be, in real life, it’s way more tragic.

You: I understand.

I: I truly see my love story, the way we met, the way we conquered many obstacles, the way I blindly trusted you and the way we demised as the greatest tragedy of my life, even if no one cares.

You: May be you don’t need to see everything so negatively.

I: When I talked to my therapist who in a way saved me from wrecking myself, I described my state like a torn down island after a Tsunami, but I recognized that I have to rebuild again and I probably kind of did succeed in that, but definitely I did not feel at that moment that I will regain my courage to continue as I felt so little.   

You: But we need to learn from the past eventually. And I want to have you as a friend again.

I: YEAH! I want to be your friend, I want to be in a place of strength where your thoughts and you no longer hurt me anymore, rather I can take you as one of the best friends who know certain parts of me more than anyone else.

You: I’d love that. I miss talking to you too.

I: I am pretty sure we are both quite different persons than who we were, may be in many ways unrecognizable. How do you truly feel about me when you think about me or us? Do you think you know me?

You: There’s many things that probably also didn’t change though. But I also think I could revert many things and not hurt you.

I: I know that I could not make you feel the way one wants to feel when one is in love and rather our love turned into boring chores and less exciting day by day and eventually it had to experience the death.

You: I agree.

I: May be, I took many things for granted that I shouldn’t have and I have beaten myself for many years to find answers to what else I could have done. I have spent hours after hours feeling sad, and may be I still can not see the way you see and can move on just saying that it’s the past we can learn from, because those hours of clouds and grief and depression will always have a reach at me.

You: But you need to realize that it wasn’t very easy for me either.

I: It’s me who felt betrayed, even if I didn’t necessarily need to feel that way. 

You: What can I say more as I apologized many times for making things worse..?

I: Yeah, I or we just can not change the past. I also wish I could revert many things, I also want to say sorry for saying many things that’s not true, for doing many things that only pushed each other away, even though I also only intended otherwise, only wanted to bond more. We can only learn from the past, but I’m truly afraid whether I will ever be able to bring anyone as close as I brought you inside my heart.

You: I know that.

I: It just breaks my heart when I think about how our love expired. But there’s definitely thousand things I have to be grateful for the experiences we had. And the things I learnt from our relationship. 

You: True.

I: Like now, I’m lying down writing and thinking – We will just stay in two corners of the world knowing that we once loved each other.

You: If you feel like, we can talk about our memories which are valuable to both of us.

I: I even feel like if I could sit in front of you, I just won’t have to say a single word.

You: Yeah.

I: That itself is meaningful. I truly think love is not easy to find and we were lucky to have it when we were young.

You: I feel the same way.

I: I hope I can find love again and I wish the same for you, because love is beautiful and worth living for. Thank you for the beautiful moments of your life that you shared with me. I truly wanted to have it more, but may be it was just not meant to be. 

A winner who doesn’t want to win for himself but for all of us

Bernie plummets to undisputed 1st place while Biden SURGES to distant second, nationally, finally!

If Bernie just can pull off South Carolina and knocks Biden out of the ring one more time! That’s the hurdle and tomorrow’s debate performance at Charlseton, SC is very crucial as every other candidate and media are ready to throw everything at him. Why is Jim Clyburn, the house majority whip from South Carolina, thinking about endorsing Biden after his miserable performance in IOWA, NH and NEVADA is beyond my common sense? Well!

California, Wisconsin, Pennsylvania – Bernie is going to win. Michigan and Massachusetts are going to be tough race as they are the home states of Amy Klobucher and Elizabeth Warren. But Bernie can still pull that off given few more wins along the path.

Marianne Williamson’s endorsement after dropping out from the race is the biggest news of this week as she brings many people traditionally uninterested in politics early on now to understand Bernie’s platform. May be because of her, Bernie may win Texas, even against Trump in general election.

I hope Yang and Tulsi will support Bernie after super Tuesday.

I like, one of the leading female anti-corruption activist, Zephyr Teachout(Attorney and Law professor) endorsing Bernie (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zephyr_Teachout). I actually like her more than Elizabeth Warren in terms of what she stands for. I wish she could run one day or get a significant position in Bernie’s cabinet if she wins. She has the merit to be the first woman President of United States one day. And former African American senator Nina Turner as VP under Bernie will make it all-around. Indian origin Rep. Pramila Joyapal from Washington is endorsing Bernie and integrating her own proposal with Bernie’s medicare4all to provide universal health care for everybody in USA. Indian origin California Rep. Rho Khanna from California and middle eastern origin Rep. Rashida Tlaib from Michigan and one and only AOC from NY are helping his message soar.

The most multi-racial, multi-generational candidate of all time – Bernard Sanders. This country can truly boast of being united across gender and race and move forward with the green new deal and the real change which will propel the change in political dynamics all across the world.

Bernie got the full house.. Game over!

And yes, Bernie will beat Trump.. 100%. Landslide. If you don’t remember, Trump didn’t even win the popular vote last time, he was about 3 million votes behind Hillary Clinton. And Bernie will be millions and millions of votes ahead of Trump.. easily with all the young and multi-racial new voters who are always left out by centrist, establishment democrat.. now that most moderate democrats are also lining behind Bernie as evidenced in Nevada caucus.

If you haven’t understood Bernie’s plan yet, it’s time to realize and believe in him. Bernie did it when he became house rep in 1991 when nobody thought he could, he became the senator in 2007 when everybody was shocked, he defeated Hillary Clinton in 2016 in multiple states and started the progressive movement when he had negligible name recognition compared to Clintons outside of the progressive circle and now in 2020 every other candidates are running on his platform with his original messages. And now to everybody’s amazement again, he will win it.
Anybody who still doesn’t know what Bernie has done for this country for last ~40 years, I just really want to put a nail on your coffin.. sorry.. No, I am kidding. I love you and just learn more: https://www.sanders.senate.gov/legislation
And if you are still complaining “How is he going to pay for everything?” I will just chime what my twitter friend Tina Parker says “How will we pay for it? Well, we pay for wars, bailing out Wall st, bankers, auto companies, etc.The price we pay for NOT having it: LIVES! These are parents, children, siblings. NOT ACCEPTABLE !!” https://twitter.com/Teeparker8/status/1232129067719307269…

Because Bernie knows how to win.
Because he wants to win not for himself, but for the ideals and changes this country and the world needs at this stage of history.

Not Me, US.

#NOTMEUS

#bernie2020 #feelthebern

The point

“What is the point of it all?” It’s kind of an ironic question, it’s a foolish question.

Herbert Fingarette (20 January 1921 – 2 November 2018) was an American philosopher and emeritus professor of philosophy at the University of California, Santa Barbara who once argued that there was no reason to fear death. At 97, his own mortality began to haunt him, and he had to rethink everything.

We have invented so many things like the big G, like those pursuit of happiness as nothing can fill the void this question creates. This is where the utility of belief in afterlife comes into action, because all of a sudden, if you believe in a rewarding or punishing after life, then a believer’s meaning of life is to optimize his or her chance of getting reward instead of getting punishment. Suddenly life has a goal! What a great invention! What a great utility of fictions!

But I guess we make a mistake when we connect these two notions: “(a) There’s no point of life if I am eventually going to die” to —> “(b) Then there’s no point of doing anything to enjoy my moments and try to make my future moments”.

Yes, “You are going to die if you jump off that bridge”. Yes, “you are going to lose your mind a bit after you finish that whiskey or do drugs”. Yes, “you are going to piss off your mom or your friends if you become the same annoying and judgmental you are.”

So, the next moments do depend on what you do in this moment. Therefore, it is possible to ensure your next moments to be pleasurable or insufferable.
But yet, if we look back, we realize we made most of our moments to be insufferable. We acknowledge most of it seem to be outside of our hands.
But should that be the reason to give up, ay?

And is striving to live life better and challenging your own self and realigning therefore the pursuit?

Of course, there are many points in experiencing and creating our moments like getting that first job, falling in love, reminiscing that last goodbye, sending letters of love, protesting against injustice.

But most of points are ultimately only valid for yourself, not for anyone or anything else. Only you can value your moment after all. You are the only judge of yourself after all.

Death lets you identify the value of life. Life is the day and death is the night, in the long run. We are just a fly in the ocean of time and you only live in the NOW, not an waking moment before, not an waking moment later. But you can create a heaven or a hell with the way you think about your moments.

A life of roaming

“I was never going to go if I was waiting for someone to come with me” – Laura.

It’s time again soon for me to plan and move to a different city and I already started fearing a new life and missing my friends. And I have been reminiscing.

Every time I move, I lose my friends and some of them are really close. It’s hard to stay away from family too sometimes. It has been taking a great toll on me losing people from life, missing people and things I once cared and still care a lot. However, life really forces you to change a lot sometimes. But with every move, there are many surprising positive things that I eventually get, for example, new friends.

Ultimately, it’s the human relationship, which linger the most, whereas, some relationships get broken with many woes. I was reading few blog posts linked below on the merits/demerits of digital nomad life and just thought about my past.

If I observe my life path, I have been a semi-nomad all my teen/adult life. This last 6 years (2014-2020) was probably the longest time I have lived in two adjacent cities for my graduate education in my ’20s, but even in this scenario, I have changed apartments/house every year. First two years (2014-2015), I frequently visited my ex girlfriend in Urbana Champaign, then (2014-2016) I lived in Lafayette, whereas since 2017 up until 2020, I lived near Purdue campus in West Lafayette. And last summer (2019 May – 2019 Aug), I lived in Silicon valley and explored the central part of the west coast in California. But when I was in Japan (2008-2014), I lived in a city at most 3 years, 1 year(2008) in Tokyo, 3 years(2009-2012) in Shikoku, (2012-2014) in Osaka, 2014 in Tokyo again. Now, even if I look further back into my life in Bangladesh, I was born in Rangpur, Bangladesh, but then my parents moved in to Ulipur, Bangladesh (~1988 – 1994 ish) where both sides of my grandparents have our country homes, then my family moved to a slightly larger northern city Rangpur (where I was born) again and I studied 10 years (1994 – 2004) for my primary and junior level schooling. After that I moved to the capital Dhaka, Bangladesh by myself leaving my parents and had my high school there from (2004-2007) and started my college in 2008 for a semester right before leaving for Japan. And of course, even in these years from 1995-2007, I changed home almost every year.

It seems to me, I have a true desire to move and roam. However, up until recently, I haven’t really realized these facts of my own life very closely. Now that I can realize, I am questioning some of the future ideas that I have. Can I ever settle somewhere, with someone? Should I ? Will I? Sometimes I feel like I am incapable of settling down as I love the idea of fluid life. But I also don’t want to have a set idea of life for mine either where everything is predictable. So, may be, it’s better to just acknowledge that I just don’t know about my future and I will never know concretely beyond just a map of ideas and dreams for an ever changing future yet to come.

Last summer I didn’t have a home and I constantly moved between airbnb, hotels, car camping. And I have been thinking whether I should go on full digital nomad mode. But as I can see there are many challenges of that. But have I ever feared challenges and risks? For me, I always craved adventures !

I believe I am not alone in this way of floating in the current of the web-like river of our lives in our society in each country on this planet in this universe. And I wish I could keep more snapshots of my life as one day it will end with all my memories inside my head.

Gosh, I have so much yet to experience and embrace! I hope not to lose track of time. And I wish I could find the less to be more.

#life #memories #travel #nomad #backpacker

https://blog.tortugabackpacks.com/realities-digital-nomad-…/
https://abackpackerstale.com/
https://piktochart.com/…/unglamorous-facts-digital-nomad-l…/

I miss you

I miss you. But there’s a part of my mind fights back saying “Why should I?” But I genuinely miss you. I miss those afternoons when I would go walk through the aisles of the grocery stores and you telling me the things to put in the shopping carts. I miss those mornings going out running leaving you in bed and thinking that you will be waiting for me and fantasizing about some sweaty sexy moments. I miss driving miles after miles feeling exhausted in one end, but feeling exalted with the thought that someone is cooking for me. I miss walking down the streets after watching shows in some theater halls.  I miss getting annoyed by you when you would make me walk through all the stores in the shopping mall. I miss staying up late all night watching silly stuff. I miss writing poetry for you. I miss you planning for our trips. I miss you being mad at me. I miss waking up and seeing your face. I miss ruminating your smile. I miss planning for our future. I feel sad that nothing of us except the memories really exist. But as you said life is and should be like this.. for long I just wanted to hold onto. As they say life is like being a shore and experiencing the sunny and stormy days. I wish I could get back my sunny insignificant days. But I feel tormented when I realize I can not go back in time. I hope to have some in future but I feel exhausted because nothing feels like as it used to. But I still hope that I will probably wake up feeling new again and can forgive and can remain calm and poised forever thereafter.

I miss you. I feel to talk to you. But I know I should not complicate more. I know I can not build up expectations anymore. I went through those stages of denial, anger, bargain. I am still in the stage of depression that feels like forever. I want to believe that I accepted what felt to be betrayal. I know I can not explain you why it couldn’t be easier. I know I messed up, I know it’s probably me who wasn’t enough. It was unbelievably unfathomable to not want you the way I used to. I know why you had to leave, I know why I had to stay away. In many ways, that’s probably what should have happened with the things that we started to want from our lives. I am happy that you now have so many experiences that may be you would never have otherwise. But it hurts to think that I would never be able to know how it would feel like if we were still waking up together. I accept that every end is a new beginning, but the heart still hurts to accept the end that was never desirable. But it ended. But I do really miss you. There are many questions you will never be able to answer me honestly, because you will have to protect yourself, justify yourself. And I understand that and may be same go with me too. But I hope that we can both be happy in our separate paths.

No need

A tribute to this beautiful Bengali song “No need (দরকার নাই)” by NXL expressing stuffs that matter.

“No need (দরকার নাই)”
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গোল এই গ্রহটার একি হাল
(gol ei grohotar eki hal)
What a disaster in this round planet
জগাখিচুড়িরর চাল
(jogakhichurir chal)
What a nasty hodgepodge
ময়লা মেঘের পাল
(moyla megher pal)
A bunch of dirty clouds
শুকনো সময় ডাল
(shukno somoy dal)
Some dried-up time of ours
গোল এই গ্রহটার একি হাল
(gol ei grohotar eki hal)
What a disaster in this round planet
জগাখিচুড়িরর চাল
(jogakhichurir chal)
What a nasty hodgepodge
ময়লা মেঘের পাল
(moyla megher pal)
A bunch of dirty clouds
শুকনো সময় ডাল
(shukno somoy dal)
Some dried-up time of ours
নদী নালা খাল বিল
(nodi nala khal bil)
Rivers and canals
বিষে ভরা বান্ডিল
(bishe vora bandil)
Bundles of poison
উড়ছে অবাক চিল
(urche obak chil)
Surprised hawks flying
শূণ্য মাছের ঝিল
(shunno macher jhil)
Lakes empty of fish
লাগবে না তোর ইকোসিস্টেম
(lagbe na tor ecosystem)
No need of any ecosystem
নষ্ট করবো আরও দাও যত ব্লেইম
(noshto korbo aro dao joto blame)
Destory it more and more, don’t blame
আমার দরকার নাই তোর প্রকৃতির দান
(amar dorkar nai tor prokritir dan)
I don’t need any gift from nature
আমার ফরমালিন আছে নাই সম্মান
(amar formalin ache, nai shomman)
I have my formalins, no respect whatsoever
আমার দরকার নাই আমার দরকার নাই আমার
(amar dorkar nai, amar dorkar nai amar)
No need, no need of mine
আমার দরকার নাই আমার দরকার নাই আমার।
(amar dorkar nai, amar dorkar nai amar)
No need, no need of mine
নাগরিক হৈ চৈ রৈ রৈ
(nagorik hoi choi roi roi)
Citizens outcrying
টাকা সব গেল কই
(taka sob gelo koi)
Where is all the money?
কালো বেড়ালের পেটে
(kalo beraler pete)
Inside the stomach of the black cat?
খৈ ফাটে টৈ টৈ
(khoi fate toi toi)
Bullshit and bullshit
হরতালে টুকিটাকি
(hortale tukitaki)
Strikes and some outcome
ককটেল ফাটাফাটি
(koktel fatafati)
Cocktail bomb blasting
গনতন্ত্রের নামে হিংস্র রাজনীতি
(gonotontrer name hingsro rajniti)
Cruel politics in the name of democracy
লাগবে না তোর নেতারূপী চোর
(lagbe na tor netarupi chor)
No need of any thief in the disguise of politician
স্বপ্ন দেখানো সব ঘুম ভাঙ্গা ভোর
(shopno dekhano sob ghum vanga vor)
Broken up of all those sleeps/hopes after dreams in the dawn
আমার দরকার নাই তোর মানবতাবোধ
(amar dorkar nai tor manobotabodh)
I don’t need any humanity
বা খুনিদের বাঁচাতে ধার্মিক ক্রোধ
(ba khunider bachate dharmik krodh)
I don’t need religious hatred to save the murderers
আমার দরকার নাই আমার দরকার নাই আমার
(amar dorkar nai, amar dorkar nai amar)
No need, no need of mine
আমার দরকার নাই আমার দরকার নাই আমার।
(amar dorkar nai, amar dorkar nai amar)
No need, no need of mine
নাউ সস্তা কলরেটের নিশাচর লাভ
(nao shosta call rate er nishachor lav)
Cheap callrate, cheap nocturnal(illegal) profit
বাট রাত পোহালেই শিট পুরোটাই ব্লাফ হেই
(but rat pohalei shit purotai bluff hey)
Full of bluffs when the night is over
নাউ সস্তা কলরেটের নিশাচর লাভ
(nao shosta call rate er nishachor lav)
Cheap callrate, cheap nocturnal(illegal) profit
বাট রাত পোহালেই শিট পুরোটাই ব্লাফ
(but rat pohalei shit purotai bluff hey)
Full of bluffs when the night is over
দেখো একজোড়া জুলিয়েট তিন জোড়া রোমিও
(dekho ekjora juliet tin jora Romio)
Look, there’s a pair of Juliets and three pairs of Romio
হিসাব করিয়া নিয়া সকলেই থামিও
(hishab koriya niya shokolei thamio)
All of you! Calculate and then stop
লাগবেনা তোর সেই পুরাতন প্রেম
(lagbena tor sei puraton prem)
No need of those forgone romance
যেথা দুজনে মিলে বাঁধতো জীবনের ফ্রেম
(jetha dujone mile bandhto jiboner frame)
Where both of you would create a frame of life
আমার দরকার নাই
(amar dorkar nai)
I don’t need
আমার দরকার নাই তোর ভালবাসা
(amar dorkar nai tor valobasha)
I don’t need your love
আমার দরকার নাই আমার দরকার নাই আমার
(amar dorkar nai, amar dorkar nai amar)
No need, no need of mine
আমার দরকার নাই আমার দরকার নাই আমার।
(amar dorkar nai, amar dorkar nai amar)
No need, no need of mine
কাঁটাতারে তারে খণ্ড মাটি নিয়ে দ্বন্দ্ব
(katatare tare khondo mati niye dondo)
Division with those thorny fences and fights for boundaries of lands
উদার ধরণী তলে রক্তের গন্ধ
(udar dhoroni tole rokter gondho)
Smell the blood beneath this fertile soil
কাঁটাতারে তারে খণ্ড মাটি নিয়ে দ্বন্দ্ব
(katatare tare khondo mati niye dondo)
Division with those thorny fences and fights for boundaries of lands
উদার ধরণী তলে রক্তের গন্ধ
(udar dhoroni tole rokter gondho)
Smell the blood beneath this fertile soil
অন্যায় অবিচার ধর্ষন ব্যভিচার
(onnay obichar dhorshon bavichar)
Crime, Injustice, Rape, Adultery
বিবেক টা লকারে তালা মারা অধিকার
(bibek ta lokare tala mara odhikar)
Put your conscience in the locker and also your rights
লাগবেনা যুক্তি বা শান্তি চুক্তি
(lagbe na jukti ba shanti chukti)
No need of either logic or peace treaty
মানুষ মরুক মানুষ মরুক
(manush moruk, manush moruk)
Let the people die, let the people die
আমার মৃত্যুই মুক্তি
(amar mrittui mukti)
Death is my only freedom
আমি কি করবো জোনাকির আলোয়
(ami ki korbo jonakir aloy)
What am I gonna do in the light of those fireflies
এই আঁধারে?
(ei andhare)
In this darkness?
ক্ষীণ আলোর এ আশা আমার লাগবে না
(khino alor e asha amar lagbe na)
This fading hope of light – I don’t need at all
আমার দরকার নাই আমার দরকার নাই আমার
(amar dorkar nai, amar dorkar nai)
No need, no need of mine
আমার দরকার নাই আমার দরকার নাই আমার।
(amar dorkar nai, amar dorkar nai)
No need, no need of mine
আমার দরকার নাই
(amar dorkar nai)
I don’t need
আমার দরকার নাই
(amar dorkar nai)
I don’t need
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Diving into Walt Whitman

I enjoyed making this video. I love poetry. Hope you will enjoy my reading from “Leaves of Grass” by Walt Whitman.

I have been reading poetry under the sunlight after the first snowfall in West Lafayette. The book I am reading now is called “Leaves of Grass” by the famous poet Walt Whitman. I am reading from Autumn Rivulets in the book. The first poem is “To a Foil’d European Revolutionaire”, the second is “This Compost” and the third is the last few passages of “Song of Prudence”.

“Poetry is just the evidence of life. If your life is burning well, poetry is just the ash.”

And I never miss the chance of using this quote of Leonard Cohen.

IPOs; Clean meat

Startups grow, they flourish; they are like flowers, they need nourishment, they need support. Some grow and make the world beautiful, but many die while still showing the glimpse of new ideas. The entrepreneurship culture has the power to change the world and the ones who have already been recognized offer their shares to the public with their IPOs so that you can take part too.
 
And as I am a Vegan trying to raise awareness about our environment, human and animal rights, I am so glad to see the success of “Beyond Meat” – they are a plant-based meat producing company. See their success (https://www.washingtonpost.com/business/2019/05/02/beyond-meat-plant-based-food-company-readies-ipo/). If you are not aware of the clean meat research and movement watch this video (How clean meat will change the food industry – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mi5EfhPGHg4). The food industry tries to demonize clean/cultured meat by calling it “Fake”, “Artificial”, “Less masculine” etc. unfortunately, as if we live in an all natural world (Don’t get your heart transplant because it’s not natural right!!, don’t use spectacles!! because God has given you the eyes you should be using.. don’t have abortion even if it’s unwanted pregnancy in the earliest stage.. cause embryos are as formed as real human babies.. so much incoherent bulshits ! Tired of the nonsense really!!!)
 
Some IPO(Initial Public Offering)s to keep under your watch if you are into the stock market. For US residents, Robinhood(https://www.robinhood.com), the commission/feeless trading app, is great. In fact, Robinhood after acquiring 5 Million users, itself, is launching its IPO which is not listed in this link.
 

You and I – 5

I: I think I am full of superiority complex. I have this condescension and self-righteousness as I can see through. And why won’t I? I feel disgusted when I can see the stupid self-destructive actions people take. Why are people so stupid?

You: It’s an illusion. You come from what you have experienced. You may know certain things more. But you don’t know, can not know everything as you have not experienced everything. You only know your life and you see everything through your lens. You may be right in terms of what is to be done right, but you have no clue why they might not have been understanding what you understand.

I: I hate to fail.

You: It’s ok if you fail now. Accept the failure. It does not mean “You are THE FAILURE”.

I: I hate deadlines.

You: Deadlines are there so that you can enjoy the freedom afterward. Ultimately you are free and there is no rush. But don’t you want to accomplish things in life? If you do, then deadlines are your friends.

I: Is my physical experience that important?

You: Your physical appearance, experience are important. Because your mind lives inside your physical body.

I: Why am I so much bothered by the physical cravings – hunger for food, sex etc? They are killing me.

You: They are your physical needs which need to be dealt with for your mind to keep engaged and flourish. Neglecting them, you will starve yourself and feeling starved your mind will not let you who you can truly become.

I: Aren’t physical appearances just the way to attract other people?

You: Yes, but it depends on how you look. Our reality is that we already live in a society. You won’t be who you are if your parents wouldn’t raise you properly, if your closed ones wouldn’t love and take care of you. However, attracting other people may not be the final goal of life. Therefore, if you are in a place where your physical appearance is harming your mental peace- like if you are fat and feel shame, you are creating a problem for your own self. There are things you can try to reconcile with. You need to think about your priorities – what you really care about. But you need to believe that you can change. You should be able to hope. You are more than your body and your mind. So say when you feel vulnerable “I am not just my body. I am not just my mind either.”

I: What do you think about minimalistic life- making everything simple, possessing few things?

You: It might help you stay away from debt or pay off your debt. Letting redundant things go can save yourself from taking unnecessary burdens Depending on how you do it, it can be adventurous. You can be a digital nomad or an urban nomad. You can travel around, make more friends and have some exciting experiences. But you need to be brave and be ready to be surprised constantly and be prepared for dangerous experiences too.

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Humanism and Veganism

To conclude “Humanism and Veganism should go hand in hand”. Do you agree? If you do, then good bye. Go use your time in more productive way, even though it won’t be a waste of time reading. Fellow vegan here. I totally agree with this person raising his voice to explain because I have the same sentiment. Lots of Vegans(don’t know the correct estimate) are out there just for a lifestyle choice, weight loss, fashion, trends, vegan communities for fun and connectedness. Unfortunately, when their knowledge of animal cruelty is mostly derived from some good speakers like Ed, whereas they are completely ignorant about politics and human injustice. Just like you can not be non-vegan environmentalist, I think you can not be a non-humanist Vegan. But the plethora of non-humanist Vegan just surprises me. According to Ed’s argument, people who have been raised Vegan are automatically or naturally be compassionate to other human beings. I think there might be a high correlation there. But not exactly true for many vegans. It might be that most Vegans are converted Vegans and their having no sympathy for fellow human beings come from their experience with other human beings. It will be hard to quantitatively measure the difference between raised and converted Vegans exactly now, with the few numbers of Vegans who have been raised by Vegan parents. Unfortunately, I have negative data points for raised Vegan as I see quite a bit of correlation with someone’s religiosity. Being from the Indian subcontinent, I have few Jain friends who are close to Vegan in terms of their food choice, who have been raised as Vegan with the same ideas of compassion and restriction. However, unfortunately, many of them eat animals now whenever they can by hiding from their parents, and have no issue with using animal products. They just fall in love with the taste of animals like anybody else as they have done it for the first time, and unfortunately, they put their taste bud pleasure above the pain of an animal. You can argue that their Jainism/Veganism are not well thought out, rather imposed by their parents just like somebody’s religion is imposed upon them. But then it becomes a circular argument and ultimately comes back to my conclusion. I have seen many Vegans who hate other human beings, are lousy in terms of other moral aspects, other important things in the world. If you ask the question to a Vegan “If you have to save a human versus an animal, who will you save?”, a lot of them will pause to take a choice. There should not be any pause to answer that question, it should be clearly human. Human life is more precious than animal life. There’s a clear moral hierarchy. We need to understand that there is no absolute morality, only relative morality which will be ever progressing with time. So, ultimately what I mean, a huge number of Vegans don’t really care about human rights, the oppression towards human being happening right in front of their eyes, mass incarceration, social inequality, wealth inequality, warmongering. I would even argue there’s a fair number of Vegans who are Trump supporters and they don’t really care about how political actions might make other humans suffer all across the world. But I do believe if there were a political activist Ed or group of Eds standing in the street corner showing people the truth, they would change their mind. A Vegan is more likely to change his mind, I want to believe. But to my dismay, very few Vegans would like to do that, and there is where I feel for this brother. I do think, if there were an Earthling Ed for each of the topics of human rights, if there were a group of individuals standing on the street for talking and trying to convince other people for each of the areas of social injustice, you can always sway people’s opinion to the more compassionate path. The fact that you are only gathering together only for animal rights; and it is hard to see a group of white men and women standing together talking about the right of black American, Mexicans, it shows a clear bias. What’s your stance on illegal immigrants? Do you want to make them suffer whereas you stand for the rights of animals? What do you think about wealth inequality? What do you think about other religion? What do you think about wars and children dying in the wars? And of course animal rights? I think you should think about all of them. I know our time is limited. Maybe we will not be able to involve ourselves in all of them, but at least we should be impartial in our knowledge of them. Every Vegan should have the compassionate, moral, rational answer for each of these questions. For me, these are not mutually exclusive. And I think Ed has the same moral take on it (at least that’s what I understood watching his many videos), but I don’t know how his energy is distributed. So, I totally understand this person and the people in the group. Do you understand him and me? You have chosen to fight for animal rights. But ask yourself? Why haven’t you chosen to fight for criminal injustice, child labor, institutional racism, wars? Is it because it’s easy to join your local vegan group and hang out and do vegan feasts with your jackfruit barbecues? It’s fine to do so, but how impartial are you? If you are the one, who puts his energy into all these other activists, I respect you, and my criticism is not for you. But if you are not, then firstly I congratulate you for choosing the Vegan path, let’s grab that vegan sandwich together, lol, but then I will probably convince you to stand in the street some other day for other reasons. Make sense Vegan fellas! And as you can see in the video, in the end a true humanist and a true Vegan are gonna hug it out. 🤗😀🤭
 
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