Palpitation

“Palpitation” – discovered this new dream pop band the other day. Really like their musical style and lyrics. Got hooked with this song “You and I”.

Echoes in my head I dream I feel at night
The time goes by but here it stands still all the time

Echoes in my head I dream I feel at night
The time goes by but here it stands still all the time

I’m not the one I’d like to be
Why can’t you see?
Why are you wasting time on me
When I’m not me ?…

Echoes in my head I dream I feel at night
The time goes by but here it stands still all the time

I’m not the one I’d like to be
Why can’t you see?
Why are you wasting time on me
When I’m not me ?…

You will always be the one
To take another piece of me
And I will always be the one
To have another breakdown

You will always be the one
To take another piece of me
And I will always be the one
To let you break me down

You will always be the one
To take another piece of me
And I will always be the one
To have another breakdown

You will always be the one
To take another piece of me
And I will always be the one
To let you break me down”

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Cloud number nine

My idiosyncrasy, romanticism and living in the dreams – may be I have learnt these the first time I listened to cloud number nine and summer of 69 back in 11th grade. Still feels so new, still gives me the same summer excitement. And here I am counting clouds again. I wish all my summers are as bright as this one.
The one and only Bryan Adams and his peculiar voice. I will dedicate my whole day listening to him. ­čśŐ The moon is up and the stars are bright.

And cloud number nine:

Clue number one was when you knocked on my door
Clue number two was the look that you wore
And that’s when I knew, it was a pretty good sign
That something was wrong up on cloud number nine

Well it’s a long way up and we won’t come down tonight
Well it may be wrong but baby it sure feels right

And the moon is out and the stars are bright
And whatever comes it’s gonna be alright
‘Cause tonight you will be mine, up on cloud number nine
And there ain’t no place that I’d rather be
And we can’t go back but you’re here with me
Yeah, the weather is really fine, up on cloud number nine

Now he hurt you and you hurt me
And that wasn’t the way it was supposed to be
So baby tonight let’s leave the world behind
And spend some time up on cloud number nine

Well it’s a long way up and we won’t come down tonight
Well it may be wrong but baby it sure feels right

And the moon is out and the stars are bright
And whatever comes it’s gonna be alright
‘Cause tonight you will be mine, up on cloud number nine
And there ain’t no place that I’d rather be
And we can’t go back but you’re here with me
Yeah, the weather is really fine, up on cloud number nine

Well we won’t come down tonight
Ya we won’t come down tonight
No we won’t come down tonight ‘Cause the moon is out and the stars are bright
And whatever comes it’s gonna be alright
‘Cause tonight you will be mine, up on cloud number nine
And there ain’t no place that I’d rather be
And we can’t go back but you’re here with me
Yeah, the weather is really fine, up on cloud number nine

Yeah, we can watch the world go by, up on cloud number nine

#music #cloudnumbernine #summer

They grew the porcupine tree in my heart.

I’m obsessed with this porcupine tree song. And I have no doubt. There’s always experiences which grow on you. I’m lost in the ocean of my thoughts. I see but I want to close my eyes. And here I am drawing the line.

Camphor crossed with lace, it is the witching hour
Climatic but crude
Teasing all my feelings out, you move away
It seems so natural to you.

Still siren, climbing up the victory tower
Like there’s something left to prove
I trap the beads of sweat that run between my eyes
And free the fever to move.

I’m drawing the line, I’m drawing the line
And I have my pride
I’m taking control, I’m taking control
And I save my soul
And I have no doubt.

#porcupinetree #explore #melancholy

Being touched in the heart

I recently got introduced to turkish music by a friend. Some of the songs are really good. For me, lyrics are important and that’s why if I like the music of a song, I naturally look up whether a translation exists or ask a friend who knows the meaning of the words. There’s these two artists I like now – one is “Pinhani” and “Emre Ayden“. Their voice really touches my heart. I would like to share Pinhani’s “Nehirler Durmaz”.

Birazdan g├╝ne┼č do─čacak
Sun will rise soon

A├žacak ├ži├žek sana sormadan

The flower will bloom without asking you

Birazdan g├╝n ba┼člayacak

The day will start soon

Saatin ├žalacak hi├ž utanmadan

Your clock will go off without shame

Oysa sen bir nehirsin

But you are a river

Ve nehirler durmaz

And rivers don’t stop

Kavu┼čur bir an ├Ânce sevdi─čine

They rejoin with the one they love

Asla ge├ž kalmaz

They are never late

─░stesen gelebilirsin

If you want, you can come

Yola ├ž─▒kmadan olmaz

Not before to hitting road

Sabah olmadan gelsen bile

Even if you come before morning

Ellerim sen olmadan ─▒s─▒nmaz

My hands can’t warm without you

Birazdan gece son bulacak

The night will be end soon

Ka├žacak uykun ard─▒na bakmadan

You’ll lose your sleep without looking back

Birazdan yollar dolacak

The roads will be crowded soon

This song includes all these natural scenes that take me to these beautiful places where I can imagine to walk, even touch and feel content. How the river is used as a metaphor is also quite interesting, how the flow of water diverges, converges makes me roll in to the deep – that quite fits into how a life goes by I assume.

And the next song is Emre Aydin‘s “Ses Ver”.

Duvarlar ├Ârd├╝m, k├Âpr├╝ler y─▒kt─▒m
I put up walls, pull down bridges

D├Ând├╝m bir bakt─▒m, hi├žbir ┼čeyi unutmam─▒┼č─▒m

I looked back, I haven’t forgotten anything

E─čer her ┼čey bitiyorsa bitsin art─▒k yoklu─čunda

If everything ends let it already end in your abscence

E─čer her ┼čey bitiyorsa, beni b─▒rakma burada

If everything ends, don’t leave me here

Çocuklar toplanıp gittiler

The children came together and went away from my soul

D├╝nle unutmak aras─▒nday─▒m ┼čimdi

Now, I’m between yesterday and forgetting

Sen yoksun inan, bir tek sen laz─▒mken

Believe me, you are absent when all I need you

Bir ses ver, yapma, burada b─▒rakma bizi

Give out a sound, don’t, don’t leave a mark

├çocuklar toplan─▒p gittiler i├žimden

The kids came together and went away from my soul

D├╝nle unutmak aras─▒nday─▒m ┼čimdi

Now, I’m between yesterday and forgetting

Sen yoksun inan, bir tek sen laz─▒mken

Believe me, you are absent when all I need you

Bir ses ver, yapma, burada b─▒rakma bizi

Give out a sound, don’t, don’t leave a mark

ses ver

Give out a sound

ses ver

Give out a sound

Yeminler ettim ve ├žok konu┼čtum

I swore, I talked a lot of

D├Ând├╝m bir bakt─▒m, hi├žbir ┼čey s├Âylememi┼čim

I looked back, I haven’t said anything

E─čer her ┼čey bitiyorsa bitsin art─▒k yoklu─čunda

If everything ends let it already end in your abscence

I like the poetry in these two songs. The remembering, the forgetting, the presence, the absence all make sense to me in quite a vivid way. “If everything ends let it already end in your abscence”- it may be the absence of a person – a loved one, but I can treat it also as the absence of something more abstract or materialistic that used to be close, that used to be a part of myself. Just giving out a sound, coz inside it’s so chaotic that you sometimes feel not to express, but you should shout. Looking back, you could have done otherwise, everything shall pass.

I also like some turkish rap. I think Ceza is probably the most popular and I like the song “Suspus”.

G├Âz g├Âz├╝ g├Ârm├╝yor hep pus
No one can see each others, it’s all haze

Takipteler ses etme sus

They’re following, don’t make sound, shush

Bir vakit donmu┼čtu beynim

My brain has freezed once

D├╝zl├╝kteyken bitmi┼č seyrim

My journey has ended on the level

G├Âz g├Âz├╝ g├Ârm├╝yor hep pus

No one can see each others, it’s all haze

Takipteler ses etme sus

They’re following, don’t make sound, shush

Durma git enerjini kus

Go ahead and discharge your energy

Zaten ├žok so─čuk etraf buz

It is already too cold, freezing

Hi├ž yalan der misin a ah

Do you tell lies? no..

Pek dert dinler misin a ah

Do you listen to others troubles? no..

Ya bayat yer misin a ah

Do you eat stale? no..

─░nsan se├žer misin a ah

Do you discriminate people? no..

Dikkatli izlersen anlars─▒n hakl─▒ megatron

If you pay attention, you’ll see that Megatron is right

Bende ghillie kevlar-mythril, sende sade bir kat krom

I have a Ghillie Kevlar-mythril, you have only one layer of chromium

Zaten tekim, ├ž─▒plak gezsem n’olur, her g├╝n dekatlon

I’m a lone ranger, what happens if I walk naked, everyday is another decathlon

Hep dikenli tel etraf─▒mda, kendi kendimeyim her g├╝n sor bir

Barbed wire all around me, I’m on my own everyday, ask me one time

Hep diken diken gel bir g├Âr

It’s all barb, come and see one time

T─▒kand─▒ kald─▒ bak her bir form

Look, every form is choked up

K─▒r─▒nt─▒lar─▒n aras─▒nda kald─▒m, ad─▒ konsun art─▒k

I stayed between crumbs, it needs a name now

Hadi konsomatrisim ol, her sokakta beni bulmak zor

Let’s be my B-girl, it’s hard to find me in every on streets

S─▒k─▒lanlardan m─▒s─▒n ya da ─▒k─▒nanlardan m─▒s─▒n?

Are you from the bored ones or stretched ones?

Kula─č─▒na dandik m├╝zik tak─▒lanlardans─▒n

You are from the ones wear dud music in their ears.

Ama kusura bakma yap─▒lacak hi├žbir ┼čey yok

Sorry but there’s nothing to do.

H─▒zl─▒ s├Âyleyen ben de─čilim yava┼č dinleyen sizlersiniz hep

I’m not fast, you are the one listening too slow always

Yava┼č s├Âylesem anlayacakm─▒┼č gibi konu┼čuyor, ┼čuna baksana kek

Look at that fool, he is talking like he’d understand if I speak slowly

Alt─▒na bez, al sana test, iki kere iki Ceza eder net

Here a napkin for you, here a test for you, two times two equal Ceza, yes

Birikiminiz ile bir bardak bile dolmaz, ├Â─črenebildin mi veled?

Your savings cannot fill up even a glass, haven’t you learnt that, you brat?

Rap harekettir ve de politiktir

Rap is the motion and it is political

Bunu hazmedemiyor isen hassiktir

Fuck off, if you can’t swallow it

Duvarda hit-list, ├žo─čunuz misfit

On the wall hit-list, many of you are misfits

Karalar─▒m her yeri sen gene hit this

I scratch everywhere, you is again “hit this”

Bilmiyorsan sus, yaralara tuz bas, karalara ayak ile herkese

Shut up if you don’t know, press salt in the wounds,

Kumpas kur bak, uzaktan head shot.ZatenÔÇŽ

Machinate to everyone, look, head shot from far away. Already

G├Âz g├Âz├╝ g├Ârm├╝yor hep pus

No one can see each others, it’s all haze

Takipteler ses etme sus

They’re following, don’t make sound, shush

Bir vakit donmu┼čtu beynim

My brain has freezed once

D├╝zl├╝kteyken bitmi┼č seyrim

My journey has ended on the level

G├Âz g├Âz├╝ g├Ârm├╝yor hep pus

No one can see each others, it’s all haze

Takipteler ses etme sus

They’re following, don’t make sound, shush

Ceza’s voice in this song gives me strength. I think this song talks about the fuzzy nature in our society where we are all shielded, confused about our journey of life. But in the end, he recommends to say “Fuck off” to all bullshits because every form is choked up and you should discharge everything you got.