My Letters to a friend for “Why Bernie Sanders”, “Why against Trump and centrist Democratic candidates (including Elizabeth Warren!!!)”

I had this informal email conversation on democratic primary elections and candidates that I am feeling to share with my readers. Hope it helps for the right cause that I believe in.


Hi Carolyn,

    Glad to hear back from you. I left California and moved back to Indiana to finish my degree. I may be back next year and if I do, I would like very much to hang out with you guys, playing frisbee and stuff. My position that “Only a progressive can win against Trump”- you are right on that. And I will emphasize that again. A centrist, corrupt establishment tactics won’t work against the radical right, “will do anything, any crime no matter what to win” Trump base and right wing politicians. To defeat corrupt, evil Trump, you need the honest, truthful, street fighter like Bernie. Don’t trust polls, polls reflect what the total population of the country think at a time. Election doesn’t happen that way.. election happens state by state.. gradually increasing the momentum of the winner. So, basically democratic candidates who can not win the early swing states, will not win against Trump. And also, democratic candidate who does not appeal to a portion of Trump voters, black, latin, diverse voters, can not win against Trump. Candidate who can not energize people with their rhetoric to get out and really vote (specially the young people) will not win against Trump. Warren’s base is highly educated white population (like I guess you and many Californian democrats!). So, based on this ideas that I said, I firmly think only Bernie can win. I also think Yang is a good candidate who is now 4th and has real solution. But I am doubtful about Warren (and Yang, because he may not attract establishment democrats) because of her centrist policy, “will get along with the establishment, play along” strategy, because of her lies of being a native american (Pocahontas!) while getting into Harvard, because of her weak foreign policy (she just voted for Trump’s military budget), because of her taking money from corporations, pacs during general election and also channeling her corporate senate stage money now in the primary while claiming she is only running a grassroot movement like Bernie etc. Also the identity politics (vote because she will be the first woman!!) is not gonna hold either this time. But of course Warren will make a good president (way better than everybody else but Bernie) but she will ultimately be someone like Obama who wanted to do a lot of good things. And this country needs more, because it’s literally bleeding. And you truly need changes like FDR brought to this country to fight back the extreme inequality and extreme corporatist culture.
I would highly recommend to watch this video on Warren: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lkzRURcRbkY
Anyway. My frustration is.. I am not a US citizen and I am not gonna vote. I hate Trump, I dislike warren because of their foreign policies. My interest in US politics come mainly from two standpoints- foreign policy and climate change. US is powerful and if they can’t fix their own democracy and if they can’t change their policy and strategies to fix climate crisis, this world is screwed. And that’s why I care to have a US president who understands and have humanistic values and against corporate greed. And this shift is needed all across the globe. Look what happened in UK, Boris Johnson, turned into UK prime minister, now pushing for Brexit. I am pretty sure.. it’s happened because of the rise of Trump. This right wing monstrous rise across the globe need to stop. Again.. my frustration is.. most americans are not educated enough on most of the policies and details of what’s going on domestically and internationally. And that’s why they elect someone like Trump! Because Americans vote someone based on whether they personally like them or not!!! riddiculous.
Have great days. See you.
🙂
Andy.
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On Mon, Sep 9, 2019 at 7:25 PM Carolyn Ray wrote:

Hi, Andy.

Your position that only a progressive can win against Trump is unusual. We
shall see. I hope that a progressive *can* win, but I’m not convinced yet.
Eric and I were just looking at the polls showing that 46% of the country
still approves of Trump, and asking each other, “Who ARE these people!?”
We are stepping up our efforts to get democrats to vote.

I’m also not sure how much a person’s debating skills matter; not that
many people watch the debates. But I do agree that Biden isn’t great at
expressing himself at this point; maybe he’s slipping in his old age.

Have you left town already? I thought I might see you again at frisbee and
lunch to continue discussions…

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On Sat, Aug 3, 2019 at 12:19 PM
Hey Carolyn,
    Thanks for your email.
    Yes, you are right. Warren specifically is not taking large sum of money from corporations. My criticism was not specifically directed towards Warren. It was more towards Pete and others. And also you will have to look not just the campaign money, rather their previous links and associations.
    I don’t have much against Warren. I would like her to be even president. In fact, I want Bernie/Warren or Warren/Bernie together as president and VP.
    I don’t think anyone but a progressive (Bernie/Warren) can win against Trump, given that ultimately democrats will have to win midwest swing states like Obama/Biden won in Illinois, Indiana, Iowa, Michigan, Wisconsin, Minnesota (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2008_United_States_presidential_election#Results_by_state). For the same reason, established democrats think Biden may win.. but Biden can not because he is super bad at debates and he has multitude of issues with african americans, trade related issues etc. And I don’t think Warren can win there either. So, ultimately it seems to me only Bernie has the capability to win there and ultimately overturn Trump.
    Watch this recent video too:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tlWJEttS5s4
    Thank you.
Andy.

Another thing I want to add.. the biggest critique against Warren is that “both Tulsi & Bernie have (opposed) every military budget increase while Warren has (supported) it every time”. Warren will be as bad as Hillary Clinton in terms of foreign policies. But she will be as good as Bernie in terms of domestic policies. So, ultimately, who was right suited for every aspect.. comes down to Bernie. The only issue is his age and I think Tulsi can make a great VP. Anyway, I am a progressive and I do think only progressives can win against Trump.. no corporate dems like Harris, Pete and Biden have any freaking chance.. where US is right now. Thanks.

Andy.

Just saw this donor related video

But being said that, I think Warren can change. But as you know, past always haunts..

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On Fri, 2 Aug 2019, 11:35 Carolyn Ray, <carolyn@supersaturated.com> wrote:

Hi, Andy.

After we talked about this at lunch post-ultimate-frisbee, I looked at the
OpenSecrets site myself. It’s why I asked where you were getting your
information about these candidates’ donors. Then you sent me the link to
the web site that seemed to contradict what you’d said. There must be
something I’m missing. I thought you said something about Harris and
Warren being beholden to big corporations or oil or something like that.


Carolyn Ray, Ph.D.

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The Mississippi call

Beside the flowing Mississippi
The sounds of cricket
The warm sunlight
My sweaty red T-shirt
The gentle soothing wind
My dirty white shoes
The “zhikzhik zhikzhik” sound of the rail truck
The hooshing sound from the passing cars
Above the bridge
The dock with empty white boats
The two speedboats
One with a girl and one with a boy
The girl jumping on the other boat and their speedy departure
The green leaves
This not so clean footpath
This big pyramidlike modern architecture on one side
And this old unmanaged bushes on the other side
The memory with my screaming with my mom in the morning
The feeling of unfulfillment in my gut
The despair and the long breathing in my heart
My unresolved love with my ex
This messy bushes reminding me the desire to live
But the constant struggle with the fear of being not enough
The simultaneous desire to live and decease
The desire to leave the ego behind
The desire to fly away from the horrors in my mind
And the cheroky Indian girl from last night
And her naked body with a pair of glasses in her shy eyes
The lonely left out bird
And the black lamppost
And the lady collecting whatsoever from the river
All the mess
And this walking
And this losing
And this desire to be loved.

#poem
#travel

Programming as Art

Programming is an art too. I got inspired to write this post after watching the video of the art making process of the artist below while writing or debugging a program.

When I write a piece of code, I am creating a software. It is the creative process of building something that can be used by others or sometimes just only by you (like that mini calculator or tic tac toe or that stupid looking game) for your own hobbyist utility.

An artist starts with an idea of what she wants to paint. A programmer also always has an idea of how the end product will look like. Then they both gradually work towards it, realizing limitations, bounds in time and space. Like an artist feels his or her limitation with canvas size, availability of color, complexity of shapes; a programmer realizes the bound in memory allocation in the finite RAM of the computer, speed of the operating system, disk space complexity etc. An artist needs to wipe out many parts of the canvas many times or improvise to ultimately produce what he or she really wants to project. A programmer needs to compile and debug many parts of his initially flawed program to fix each part, solve each mini problems to ultimately produce final working version.

But for some reason, most programmers don’t call themselves artists or feel like an artist. Is it a perception problem? Programming is perceived as a boring thing. May be the reason lies in the limited visualization power a programmer often has. What I mean is that, an artist can show his or her artwork to a lay-person and more often, people will get it with or without explanation. But it probably requires a lot of education, engineering, computational skills often to understand a program. In that sense, programming may be compared with craft too. But ultimately a program can be used, just like a hand craft can be put on your table to decorate or an art piece like a painting can be hanged on the wall.

For example, I am using my keyboard to write on this text editing program of Facebook to write this post on “Programming as art”. This small piece of editing program of the entire program that represents Facebook app or website is probably managed by a group of programmers/engineers at Facebook. They have written the program so that users like me can write their thoughts, ideas and post on their news feed as efficiently as possible; they can tag their friends, thay can put their location, they can add their feelings, they can add to their story, they can customize who can see their post. There are a lot of parts of this small piece of program (in fact it’s not that small !). Facebook user like me who have experienced the evolution of this post publishing editorial program since the early age of facebook (like from 2005), knows how this program has changed over time, how it has transitioned into a master, multi-tasking programmatic art-piece.

Now I have touched into another topic of creative process: Solo vs Collab effort. Instead of giving an example of a solo programmer writing his own little program (may be like when Zuckerberg was writing his first facebook code for liking/disliking photos back in the dormitory of Harvard), I have given an example of a collaborative effort towards creating a gigantic program (which is basically what programmers at software companies do). In that sense, it’s like a big piece of sculpture or a building that artists are constructing, architects are planning and builders are setting up. I guess, the dynamics and complexity of a collaborative project is just a matter of scale. A single programmer or a solo artist doing the entire program or art, versus working in a part of a collaborative big art, programmatic, software projects.

There is a book named “The art of computer programming” by Donald Knuth (https://www.amazon.com/Art-Computer-Programming-Fascicle-Millennium-ebook/dp/B00RN14FNC).

Now in the end, what I personally think that, any human endeavor can be turned into something artistic. Like cooking, dancing, writing.

Who is an artist? Are you an artist? Is science entirely separate from art? I don’t think so. The scientific process can be artistic. Math is also regarded as art.
What makes the distinction between art and non-art? I personally need to think and explore more into this question.

 

We are in this together.

“Economic rights are human rights. That is what I call Democratic Socialism. :)”
Authoritarianism, and the self proclaimed kings and queens just make me seek. Why are we so selfish? What made us believe that we can just take advantage of the next standing man or woman for our own gains, but still somehow prosper in our own lives? May be these are the outcomes of unconscious capitalism and obsessive consumerism, subconsciously getting imprinted in our mind, making ourselves numb to the sufferings of our fellow brothers and sisters. Why is there lack of justice in the society, why is there so much manipulation, what’s the impulse of being unfair and unjust? Is nature itself unjust, unfair, but does that mean we will have to be that way? There is only one brave man among the backboneless who can see it and say it how it is. And everyone else is just too busy wiping their own.. Time and time, we probably need to be remembered what it means by basic human rights, civil rights. Things we enjoy today didn’t come easy! If there’s only one thing I could change in education, I would change the history books more fun and factual for the generations to understand how we arrived where we are and why morality, fairness, empathy, cooperation matter for the survival and progress of the human animals.
“In other words, we are in this together, late alone our differences and appearances.”

On the go

I am in San Francisco right now, just sitting in a Starbucks storming my brain about the recent happenings in my life. It’s been about two weeks I moved to Bay area in California from Indiana. I waited for this for a long time and finally an internship at a tech company opened the opportunity to move from midwest to the west coast of America. And yes, the weather is different, warm as I  prefer. And a lot of things just simply changed. Or I should probably say that I have intentionally tried hard to make changes in the way I used to live before. I didn’t seek for comfort this time, I seeked for adventures and unknowns and I am having it constantly. I no longer live in a house or an apartment. It was a challenging step to take. I actively wanted to explore the digital nomad life, partly with the intention of reducing the cost of living and partly to have some adventure in the territories of life unseen. And I have been successfully doing it so far. It wasn’t easy, but as always, you learn on the way; by doing it, by failing, by getting hurt, but eventually succeeding, sometimes partially with some compromises. I required to buy a new car – a good car for camping. Sometimes I am staying in AirBnbs. Yesterday I stayed in a nice hotel, which was bit unexpected and had a funny story behind it. The inspiration to start a dynamic life came after watching few Youtubers and Redditers exploring the alternative way of living. It helps when you see others who have already done stuffs you have only been fantasizing to taste.  I got ideas from them about how to equip my car, how to roam around, how to take stops. Definitely the diversity and business of a city life help urban nomads to mesh their life with the days and nights of a diverse city and its various pockets. I have been exploring restaurants around, new bars, new latin dance events. I am trying to make new friends so that eventually if I stick to living here, I can have a fair amount of people I can give calls to hang out with. I am kind of rushing now, may be will go take a walk in the city. But hope to write more about different experiences.

Check my instagram for pictures: https://www.instagram.com/experience_and_embrace/

 

IPOs; Clean meat

Startups grow, they flourish; they are like flowers, they need nourishment, they need support. Some grow and make the world beautiful, but many die while still showing the glimpse of new ideas. The entrepreneurship culture has the power to change the world and the ones who have already been recognized offer their shares to the public with their IPOs so that you can take part too.
 
And as I am a Vegan trying to raise awareness about our environment, human and animal rights, I am so glad to see the success of “Beyond Meat” – they are a plant-based meat producing company. See their success (https://www.washingtonpost.com/business/2019/05/02/beyond-meat-plant-based-food-company-readies-ipo/). If you are not aware of the clean meat research and movement watch this video (How clean meat will change the food industry – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mi5EfhPGHg4). The food industry tries to demonize clean/cultured meat by calling it “Fake”, “Artificial”, “Less masculine” etc. unfortunately, as if we live in an all natural world (Don’t get your heart transplant because it’s not natural right!!, don’t use spectacles!! because God has given you the eyes you should be using.. don’t have abortion even if it’s unwanted pregnancy in the earliest stage.. cause embryos are as formed as real human babies.. so much incoherent bulshits ! Tired of the nonsense really!!!)
 
Some IPO(Initial Public Offering)s to keep under your watch if you are into the stock market. For US residents, Robinhood(https://www.robinhood.com), the commission/feeless trading app, is great. In fact, Robinhood after acquiring 5 Million users, itself, is launching its IPO which is not listed in this link.
 

You and I – 5

I: I think I am full of superiority complex. I have this condescension and self-righteousness as I can see through. And why won’t I? I feel disgusted when I can see the stupid self-destructive actions people take. Why are people so stupid?

You: It’s an illusion. You come from what you have experienced. You may know certain things more. But you don’t know, can not know everything as you have not experienced everything. You only know your life and you see everything through your lens. You may be right in terms of what is to be done right, but you have no clue why they might not have been understanding what you understand.

I: I hate to fail.

You: It’s ok if you fail now. Accept the failure. It does not mean “You are THE FAILURE”.

I: I hate deadlines.

You: Deadlines are there so that you can enjoy the freedom afterward. Ultimately you are free and there is no rush. But don’t you want to accomplish things in life? If you do, then deadlines are your friends.

I: Is my physical experience that important?

You: Your physical appearance, experience are important. Because your mind lives inside your physical body.

I: Why am I so much bothered by the physical cravings – hunger for food, sex etc? They are killing me.

You: They are your physical needs which need to be dealt with for your mind to keep engaged and flourish. Neglecting them, you will starve yourself and feeling starved your mind will not let you who you can truly become.

I: Aren’t physical appearances just the way to attract other people?

You: Yes, but it depends on how you look. Our reality is that we already live in a society. You won’t be who you are if your parents wouldn’t raise you properly, if your closed ones wouldn’t love and take care of you. However, attracting other people may not be the final goal of life. Therefore, if you are in a place where your physical appearance is harming your mental peace- like if you are fat and feel shame, you are creating a problem for your own self. There are things you can try to reconcile with. You need to think about your priorities – what you really care about. But you need to believe that you can change. You should be able to hope. You are more than your body and your mind. So say when you feel vulnerable “I am not just my body. I am not just my mind either.”

I: What do you think about minimalistic life- making everything simple, possessing few things?

You: It might help you stay away from debt or pay off your debt. Letting redundant things go can save yourself from taking unnecessary burdens Depending on how you do it, it can be adventurous. You can be a digital nomad or an urban nomad. You can travel around, make more friends and have some exciting experiences. But you need to be brave and be ready to be surprised constantly and be prepared for dangerous experiences too.

Image courtesy: http://tiny.cc/rhyd6y

We will have to save our world

 

This kid is telling us, adults with brains, about climate change because we apparently forgot how to think and shut our eyes to see ! And then when I listen to those adults denying climate change, my jaw drops; specially those big fat ones in the parliaments of various countries, from even specifically including the self-proclaimed world police withdrawing from the United Nations Framework Convention on Climate Change. Most parents are raising their kids; most adults are basically hating their jobs, in coming days probably won’t even find jobs; some adults are trying to invent every form of entertainment so that they can escape the reality – it seems like everybody already deluded each other believing that we are going to live in the same world that we were born somehow. We are living in the fourth but the biggest technological revolution- the internet, the social media, the money revolution, the artificial intelligence, mars exploration in one hand, on the other hand the decimation and destruction of our own planet and atmosphere by our own greed. Parents have no idea that the schools, colleges they send their kids probably won’t help their kids find any jobs as the way Google, Amazon are developing Artificial Intelligence and the automation is taking away jobs from human hands and our schools have no clue about future but to teach the same books they taught our grandparents, and then on our lands on which we build our homes, probably the most habitable lands, will no longer be available in most areas due to natural hazards resulted by climate change. Countries are still trying to steal oil from each other, fossil fuel industries are still lobbying so that they can make some extra dollars by going against green renewable alternatives, rainforests are being destroyed so that the overpopulated earth can eat more and more; but then when the cyclones and tsunamis will rise from the ocean, when the earthquakes will just decimate acres of lands, displace millions of people and force them to migrate and cause wars and battles as our vague nationalism and capitalistic self-cyclic greed are just making us more selfish and self-righteous and less compassionate day by day; when the melted ice and glaciers and the consequent sea level will just level everything within few decades; I don’t know where will all these entertainment politics and mudslinging and worrying about the smallest little things, fighting over the silliest topic on the outdated television channels will go. To be pessimistic, may be, the nature will just blow up the earth with all our interesting circus inside; just like a cruel boy uses his cruel lazy feet to destroy an ant colony that those small, little, hard working ants have built little by little, after sweating for days and nights. To be optimistic, I guess, we will have like some child genius activist like this school kid who will motivate all of us to do the right thing, to take the actions necessary, to start loving our planet, to enjoy living together peacefully with all the other species. I don’t want to live with horrors, rather I want to live in a world full of optimism and energy and with the sense that I am working towards making the world better than the world I was born. I was not aware before because I didn’t have the information, I didn’t know how our world is shaping into a nightmare because of climate change. This little kid talks about how she doesn’t want to be a climate scientist to discover another issues for the future that will not exist because of what we are doing now and now and now. We can change and we will have to change. She shows how we can change, how we can take actions to save our mother earth for our own selves. And it starts by understanding what we have done wrong, and how we can do right- like may be, we should reduce burning fossil fuels, may be we should not elect politicians who are ignorant about climate change, artificial intelligence, may we should start using electric cars to try to reduce the emission of carbon dioxide, may be we should start using renewable energy sources, so that the new renewable energy companies can florish, may be we should be vocal against industrial farming so that the greenlands, forests, rainforests don’t get destroyed, may we should take care of our ecological niches, may be we should go vegetarian or vegan so that we consume less animal products, which will reduce industrial farming which is a significant cause behind greenhouse gas emission, may be we should rethink about other kind of jobs which can employ people who are dependent on the jobs that again are destructive towards our planet. We should live in the world of today and enjoy it in a way so that the world can florish. May be, we should learn to love our world. Please educate yourself about climate change.

Humanism and Veganism

To conclude “Humanism and Veganism should go hand in hand”. Do you agree? If you do, then good bye. Go use your time in more productive way, even though it won’t be a waste of time reading. Fellow vegan here. I totally agree with this person raising his voice to explain because I have the same sentiment. Lots of Vegans(don’t know the correct estimate) are out there just for a lifestyle choice, weight loss, fashion, trends, vegan communities for fun and connectedness. Unfortunately, when their knowledge of animal cruelty is mostly derived from some good speakers like Ed, whereas they are completely ignorant about politics and human injustice. Just like you can not be non-vegan environmentalist, I think you can not be a non-humanist Vegan. But the plethora of non-humanist Vegan just surprises me. According to Ed’s argument, people who have been raised Vegan are automatically or naturally be compassionate to other human beings. I think there might be a high correlation there. But not exactly true for many vegans. It might be that most Vegans are converted Vegans and their having no sympathy for fellow human beings come from their experience with other human beings. It will be hard to quantitatively measure the difference between raised and converted Vegans exactly now, with the few numbers of Vegans who have been raised by Vegan parents. Unfortunately, I have negative data points for raised Vegan as I see quite a bit of correlation with someone’s religiosity. Being from the Indian subcontinent, I have few Jain friends who are close to Vegan in terms of their food choice, who have been raised as Vegan with the same ideas of compassion and restriction. However, unfortunately, many of them eat animals now whenever they can by hiding from their parents, and have no issue with using animal products. They just fall in love with the taste of animals like anybody else as they have done it for the first time, and unfortunately, they put their taste bud pleasure above the pain of an animal. You can argue that their Jainism/Veganism are not well thought out, rather imposed by their parents just like somebody’s religion is imposed upon them. But then it becomes a circular argument and ultimately comes back to my conclusion. I have seen many Vegans who hate other human beings, are lousy in terms of other moral aspects, other important things in the world. If you ask the question to a Vegan “If you have to save a human versus an animal, who will you save?”, a lot of them will pause to take a choice. There should not be any pause to answer that question, it should be clearly human. Human life is more precious than animal life. There’s a clear moral hierarchy. We need to understand that there is no absolute morality, only relative morality which will be ever progressing with time. So, ultimately what I mean, a huge number of Vegans don’t really care about human rights, the oppression towards human being happening right in front of their eyes, mass incarceration, social inequality, wealth inequality, warmongering. I would even argue there’s a fair number of Vegans who are Trump supporters and they don’t really care about how political actions might make other humans suffer all across the world. But I do believe if there were a political activist Ed or group of Eds standing in the street corner showing people the truth, they would change their mind. A Vegan is more likely to change his mind, I want to believe. But to my dismay, very few Vegans would like to do that, and there is where I feel for this brother. I do think, if there were an Earthling Ed for each of the topics of human rights, if there were a group of individuals standing on the street for talking and trying to convince other people for each of the areas of social injustice, you can always sway people’s opinion to the more compassionate path. The fact that you are only gathering together only for animal rights; and it is hard to see a group of white men and women standing together talking about the right of black American, Mexicans, it shows a clear bias. What’s your stance on illegal immigrants? Do you want to make them suffer whereas you stand for the rights of animals? What do you think about wealth inequality? What do you think about other religion? What do you think about wars and children dying in the wars? And of course animal rights? I think you should think about all of them. I know our time is limited. Maybe we will not be able to involve ourselves in all of them, but at least we should be impartial in our knowledge of them. Every Vegan should have the compassionate, moral, rational answer for each of these questions. For me, these are not mutually exclusive. And I think Ed has the same moral take on it (at least that’s what I understood watching his many videos), but I don’t know how his energy is distributed. So, I totally understand this person and the people in the group. Do you understand him and me? You have chosen to fight for animal rights. But ask yourself? Why haven’t you chosen to fight for criminal injustice, child labor, institutional racism, wars? Is it because it’s easy to join your local vegan group and hang out and do vegan feasts with your jackfruit barbecues? It’s fine to do so, but how impartial are you? If you are the one, who puts his energy into all these other activists, I respect you, and my criticism is not for you. But if you are not, then firstly I congratulate you for choosing the Vegan path, let’s grab that vegan sandwich together, lol, but then I will probably convince you to stand in the street some other day for other reasons. Make sense Vegan fellas! And as you can see in the video, in the end a true humanist and a true Vegan are gonna hug it out. 🤗😀🤭
 
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You and I – 4

I: I am thinking about the cycle of life. Imagine a mammoth tree; it starts from a seed planted on earth; then it grows to be a small plant; it gets taller, bigger and wider; it branches out, takes more space, becomes the nest of some birds, provides the shadows to the passersby; but one day after many years it die; it can no longer maintain its life.

You: So is the life of most animals and the human too. Is it not?

I: Yeah. I just realized that a full cycle of life has its peak and its valley. Let’s say when you were born you were in a valley, then you walked, walked, walked all the way up to the peak of a mountain, then you must have to come back to the valley in the other side. What is striking me the most is that it’s not a choice to stay either on the peak or the valley of the landscape. Time is forcing you to move and there is no constancy.

You: We are just experiencers experiencing life.

I: Then why do we attach ourselves too much to anything at all? Like our parents, our house, our babies, our career, our achievements, our this, our that.

You: Because at many moment in life, you have things or relationships which are replaceable and things or relationships which are irreplaceable. You are right that we delude ourselves with many of our assumptions and false expectations. But at the same time we require a certain purpose for us to live and move on the path from the valley to the peak, to the valley again. Many actually never reach the peak, many die on the way to the valley. There is probably no one exact peak either.

I: Life is confusing to me often times. I drive myself to achieve things, to go to places, to desire. I do things to make myself happy. But there are many things that make me unhappy. There are many desires that will never be fulfilled. But if I don’t chase, I will never achieve, right? But the process of chasing is tiring and makes me unhappy. Every rejections, failures break my heart, but when I stand up again, I become stronger. But there is probably no end of this cycle. Just like the day ends with a night and a night ends with a day. Or, a night starts with the end of a day and a day starts with the end of a night. But ultimately I will die one day. So is it that ultimately I just want to remain as happy as possible most of the times. That’s the goal?

You: Well, not a bad goal. Is it?

I: There is so much imperfection in this world. Don’t you think? So much unfairness, so much dirt.

You: Yeah. I guess we are in this mess because everyone is confused. Everyone knows for a fact that he or she is alive, feels pain, doesn’t want to feel pain, wants to be happy, wants to have things, can’t have things because of others, then wants to hurt others. A whole dynamics of give and take in unfair ways. And it’s good that our society is still progressing.

I: Are we really progressing towards a better world? I was reading this book. She is a writer from the past century. But her imagination, her wording, her observation just mesmerized me. I probably have never talked with a woman in the world of today where I live who is as convincing, creative like the author I was reading. But you see.. I guess most people these days don’t read or even write. Even I waste most of my time watching rubbish movies and videos than to explore my mind through reading or writing. It seems to me that all the advent of science and technology are making ourselves duller and duller, less of a human of some sort. We are losing more than we are supposed to gain as a human being. We are experiencing way less than our mind can truly conceive.

You: May be you are right.

I: I was also thinking that the society that we live in today doesn’t really have an incentive system for doing good deeds. We have clear incentive to be successful, to be dominant, but do we really have incentive to be just good persons? I guess it’s hard to establish such. Even though I have bad relationship with religion, I guess religion tried to exactly that- forcing people to do good with the fear of hell and God- that apparently doesn’t work. But in a world of today, does anyone want to be a good person anymore? What does it even mean by goodness?

You: These are hard questions. I wish I had answers. May be nobody has.

 

You and I – 1 : https://experienceandembrace.wordpress.com/2019/01/23/you-and-i/

You and I – 2 : https://experienceandembrace.wordpress.com/2019/01/27/you-and-i-2/ 

You and I – 3: https://experienceandembrace.wordpress.com/2019/01/29/you-and-i-3/